Wednesday

2008

Good Year

Full of laughs, friends, family and good memories.

I hardly remember the year (I blame bad memory). But still..... awesome, rockin' totally cool year.

I met new friends, and I got to spend some quality time with the fam.

I don't think there's anything I would change. It has been a pretty fantastic year, and I can't wait for '09. It'll be so much fun! :D

7 minutes left. My list of resolutions:
1) Stop Procrastinating
2) Lose Weight
3) Accept myself for who I am
4) Either get my crush or at least let him know I like him
5) Try harder in math
6) Be more productive! (aka, stop spending so much time on the comp!)
7) Get in control of my anger
8) Open up!
and the magical nubmer 9:
Be as optimistic as possible!

3 more min, and I hope that these can last. They seem to be big goals for me, but I think I can do it. *sigh* Almost '09.

2 more min.

Amazing.

I can't believe it. So many things to relive. So much to look forward to. So much to work on. So much to be happy about.

I CAN'T WAIT.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Monday

I get and know more than people give me credit for.

Sure, I can be really stupid and times.... and really distracted...

But I hate it when people doubt me. Like they can't be sure... I hate it.

I just wish people would understand me, my past, and who I really am.

Sunday

Is it too much to ask for a little attention from time to time?

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I feel so neglected by my friends. It sucks.... so much.

In other news... http://academicconnections.ucsd.edu/index.cfm <-- Invite in the mail. Makes me feel too smart... :\

Saturday

There are some things in life that I take for granted.

And I think number one is family.

I had my brother and sister over for Christmas... It was awesome having them over. Since I hardly ever see my brother, I was just having so much fun with him over. He is cool for a 28-year old. Maybe I'm being biased 'cause he's my bro. :P

But, I am SUPER tired from not sleeping.... because I had to share a bed with my sis. oh well. it happens and I can get rested tonight. Hopefully...

Mmmm....

GUY. DRAMA. NEEDS. TO. DIE.

haha. Yeah... it's just... yeah...

I'm conflicted. I have the advice from..... 4 girls and one guy. lol. You'd think that I would have enough... but... nope. I still have no freakin' clue!

Friday

Many things... many things

I shall start off with..... Monday....

Full day, review for finals... nothin special

Tuesday... snow day. Went over to a friends, make rice krispie treats and made a mountain dew tree for our choir teacher....

Wednesday- finals start. Choir and Science for me. Science was pretty good....long, but good. Then choir, we took our test advisory and had a party during the actual period we were supposed to test in....

Thursday- PE and English. PE... I didn't really try because I was shaken up by my friend the day before... "lost" my friend during lunch.... haha. So me and my other friend just look for him and talk. We introduce her to our inside joke. It's great...

Then today.... Math and Geography. A whirlwind of emotions... ups and downs... just everything. :\ I dunno... is was weird... *shrug*

I was happy with my finals being over and having my vacation... and I got to have some fun during lunch with my guy friends. Totally amazing to mess with... MBGF (my best guy friend).

Mm... then I was walking home with my friend and another person... who is kinda my friend but can get on my nerves a lot... :\ but yeah, my good mood was like, totally wiped out when we were walking... it sucked.

But I got to my friend's house, and soon... we were having a blast. It was great making cookies and stuff. :)

I stayed there for most of the day and just... so many stories and memories... I... I loved it.

After dinner we were talking about how I'm in health next semester and my friend... she was pretty shaken up by a lot of the stuff that happened in that class. So her mom was telling me that you can request a different cirriculum... and that I can go to her for anything in that class.

I wanna try it out, but in the end I think I'm going to opt out. Sure, it'll suck to not be with my friends (unless they opt out, too).... but I think it's the lesser of two evils....

OH! Funny thing...

My friend and I were having a poking war with straws... I got THREE CUTS that drew blood in my hands. Two are on the same finger... so I have a total of four cuts on one finger!!

haha...

Final's grades: Math- 84 (pretty darn good for me!), PE- No clue (don't care anyways), Choir- 9something or other (It's an A...), Science- No clue (hope it's good though), English-91 (just barely), Geography- 92!!!!!!!

Friday

Oh finals, how I love thee.

Next week is finals week and boy, do I have to start and study!!! I'm making vocab cards for english, then printing old tests and keys for science, scanning over notes from geography (not this weekend, though), and doing a review for English, then there's math....

Phew. It's a good bit.

But, onto some funny things that have happened....

Yesterday...

My PE class got out early, so we're waiting in the foyer... and one of my friends starts talking about how it'd be cool if there was a sport like volleyball that you had to hit the ball with your stomach...

So, my other friend (a guy, btw) goes and does that... and lands flat on his butt. As he and I are walking to our next class he goes, "Ow.." and I say, "Yeah, I heard the thud." LOL

Then.... OH!

My friends and I go and play cards in the library. We're playing spoons (with pencils) and we all basically dive for a pencil... lol

Going to our next class, one friend told me that one flew into their jacket sleeve. haha....

I. Can. Only. Take. So. Much.

Wednesday

I know I say this a lot... but I LOVE my friends. They provide some of the greatest times... like, ever. lol.

mmm... So today I go to finish my math test during lunch and I see two of my friends going where I am. So I follow them and once I catch up, I get my other friend and we go to the library to play cards... and one does homework.

But the thing is... neither I nor one guy finished our lunches... so we basically eat in the library. Haha. That was great. It was probably the smallest lunch I have ever had.

I think the funniest part was when we were getting ready to leave.....

Well, first off I should explain that the guy was eating pizza and... put it in his jacket.... lol.

So, the bell rings for us to leave and he takes the plate out oh his jacket... but the pizza's not in there. So he goes, "Where'd it go?"
And, at that point I'm laughing. And then I guess it moves in his sleeve and he does, "That's the pizza"....

Aha, need to say anymore? :P

Tuesday

Ugh. More snow. Thankfully it did not stick. I just cannot stand snow. Honestly... I just can't. And most people don't understand. :\. Oh well.

Mmm.... let's see...

Oh! I basically told my guy friend/crush like, my biggest... secret (I guess you could call it that) yesterday. It was so natural and... just easy to say it. I hadn't planned to tell him anytime soon, but I figured, I'm OK with it, and it related to the conversation we had...

But I'd rather NOT release the details to the interwebs for anyone to see. It's still personal, no matter how many people I tell. It's always there and part of my past. I've grown from it, and I'm like, a total 180 from then.

But it was funny, walking to science with my friend. I did not feel well (completely tired and crabby and somewhat depressed) and we were talking about how her english teacher said, "Come to class everyday except if you're dying" and so I go, "Well, we're all dying" and then my guy friend is like, just a few feet ahead of us and like, does a fake dramatic death... and I'm all, "Thanks for eavesdropping" (Kidding, of course) and go, "But, seriously, every second we get closer to our deaths" and then I realize... that was really emo and depressing... which results in the whole, "Wow...that was emo." by like, all of us.

But yeah....

Oh... and yesterday I was told that I have a good taste in music... wow...

I have so much I could be/should be doing... like English homework... geography vocab... study for science, study for PE... *headdesk* dude... too much

UGH.

Sometimes I just get sick and tired of helping my friend with her life and guy problems... just... UGH.

:\ I like helping people with their problems, but she is just so freakin' stubborn about it! It seems like I can't do anything to help. I just can't. I HATE it. I just wanna stop helping her and have a conversation that does not mention ANY guys. HELP ME GOD PLEASE!

Sunday

WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

Friday was totally awesome! There was a pep rally 'cause our football team got into the state championships... (we lost though). So I got to miss a good portion of my first period and shortened second period... then for third, headed over to the dress rehearsal.

It was really cool and I'm happy that I got to go! It was fun.... but we got back in time to go to 6th period-which we were originally going to miss.... but I went ahead and ditched because I was excused from that class anyway. :D and I got to rub it in one friend's face... ('cause I went to go get a book to study for a test [I did not study, btw] and so... my locker is right by that class....)

And then I walked home with a friend and went over to her house and had some fun. I got to burn off some energy because I was SO hyper! I am not kidding you, I could not have stayed still... and I got to run which I think totally burned out some energy...

mmm then.... I got home... and... my niece and sister were home! I never get to see them, so it was great having them over. And my niece is a little energy ball! And she's TINY! Dude... she totally takes after me with the shortness, cold hands.... and I would love to believe eyes... ('cause they are CUTE!)

Then, yesterday... was the choir performance. I did not have any butterflies. At all. That's a first, I always have butterflies before I perform... :\

But I heard my little niece laughing once or twice while I was on stage... and it was great to have a good portion of my family there to see me. :) I loved it! But, eventually, my parents and nice went because she was getting very tired and fussy... but she had the best timing with her laughs. :P

Mmm.... yeah, so we stayed to the end... and by that time (10:00) I was tired and ready to go home...

Then today... ugh... the tiredness got to me... and so I was kinda snippy, but I guess I'll live. Things have been really awesomely awesome!

Wednesday

Duuuuuudee...... It's almost Firday! YES!

I am so excited for Friday. I get to miss most of school... for a dress rehearsal for my school's choir! It's going to be totally awesome. AND, that day, we have a pep rally for the football team. :D AND my sister and niece are coming. AND I believe that day I'm getting picked up.

Today... I felt tall. But, sadly, I was only average height. Yepp, I wore three inch wedges to school. I would so do it again tomorrow just to stand next to my tall guy friend and see his reaction. :P

I felt like a total hippie in choir today. Because I had taken off my shoes (we were playing a game that required running.... I'd rather be alive and not hurt, thank you very much). And the fact that I was wearing nice loooong light wash jeans... and a green shirt with a whole bunch of stuff that would be classified as 'tree hugger'....

If only I was wearing a peace sign and wearing my hair down. LOL.

Tomorrow's Thursday... *joy* Well, it's not TOO bad. I'm just waiting... Friday... come.... now!

Tuesday

Oh the power of friends.

I am not kidding. It's so awesome to be able to have friends who will make you smile and laugh without knowing it, or even trying. That is why I love my friends...

What started off as a bad-ish day, turned into something really nice. I just... I don't know. Something happened.... ok, well, in geography, our class got moved. Finally. Even though we only have like two or three weeks left in the class... I got moved to a table with my friend, and another friend is sitting right behind me. So, bad idea on the teacher's part, but, totally not complaining.

Also in geography, we had to do a poster individually about a section in the chapter... and we have to present. When it comes time to present, we have to line up with the group that did the same section. And then we present in a certain order.

So, it comes time for the section that I did to present. Of course, luck has it, I'm the only girl. Of course, the teacher decides that I should go first. *rolls eyes* I turned so red, I could feel it.

The thing is, I hate public speaking, but I'm somewhat OK at it. Better than most, I guess. Since most people don't like public speaking, she decides to make it as short as possible-you don't have to talk for more than 15 seconds.

I start.... and I just keep on going. I'm sure I was closer (or even passed) the 15 second mark... But the thing is, once I start talking, I can't stop. But, the first impression I give out probably doesn't reflect that. And, you can obviously see with how much I type in my blogs! Lol.

Hmm.... oh! And that brings me to thinking about first impressions.

I remember the first week of school I thought that the girl I sit next to in science was like, really mean. But, now getting to know her... we haven't changed spots! :D

And.... that's the only first impression I can think of. Every other friend just flowed seamlessly in with no impressions or anything. I guess I either have an open mind, or I'm just really forgetful.

I find that my first impression is misleading. Sort of. I think that when you first meet me, you'll think of me as the smart, goody-two shoes, shy, quiet girl. While, that is half true- everything changes once you get to know me.

Once you get to know me, you see that... I lack common sense and I tend to do stupid things. I don't mind if people have a laugh at my expense. I usually find those things funny too. I am a goody-two shoes. But not horrible. I DO let people cheat off my papers... I DO cuss a little. But, that's about it.... I am shy when meeting people for the first time. It just... it just happens. I can't dive headfirst into a friendship, it seems. And quiet.... I am anything but when you get a conversation going one-on-one with me. You can't get me to shut up. :P

Blarg. My ipod is not being cool :( I tried to fix it, and I thought I had it.... then it kinda broke my spirits! OH well, at least it still plays and if it still refuses to be nice tomorrow, I'm gonna have to tell someone....