Alright, so I think I need to get some 'unsent letters' out. Not because I'm angry or upset, but there are a lot of things that have been floating around in my mind.

Dear sister,
You don't help things when you yell or make a fuss about things. I've been trying hard and when you go and imply that I haven't been doing enough, it hurts. I'm sorry, but I will REJOICE when I finally get to be away from you. I will pack my bags and leave ASAP. I don't know how to communicate this to you  because I know it's not exactly something that I should be feeling. Honestly though, I wish you would stop nagging me or yelling at me. That's all I want.
- Liz

 Dear Calvin,
My goodness how things have changed between us these past few weeks. I'm not sure if I can even devote words to how awesome it's been. You've done a lot for me, especially when things took a dive for the worse recently. You've given me a shoulder to cry on and it's been extremely helpful. But you've also been able to make me laugh and smile so much that sometimes I forget my problems. Heck, sometimes just being near you and seeing you at school helps. And then there's the excess amount of time we spend talking to each other that sorta makes me wish that we didn't have anything stopping us. However, we have lots of bars and barriers and it just wouldn't work out. But maybe I'm okay with that. For now I can value your friendship and take it as is. I know that we'll be with each other for many years to come. You have grown so close to me that I don't want to let you go. I refuse. But I also have to wonder a little bit about our transgressions. I'm just too scared to tell you.
- Liz

Dear life,
You kinda suck. I'm stressing about AP tests that I probably won't even do well on, finals that are coming up, my grades have kinda gone downhill because I've stopped caring, and you've presented me with the longest battle against moodiness in awhile. I'm trying so hard to be optimistic, but somehow, I doubt that it's working. I'm trying so hard to make the most out of everything. I'm hoping that once I get out from a stressful situation, I'll feel loads better.
-You know who.

Okay, so, I guess I've just been stressed out. I have reasons. The end is near.
   Train up a child in the way he should go, and when he is old he
will not turn from it.
   -- Proverbs 22:6

Friend: Hell yeah, ima miss you girl.
Me: Im gonna miss all of you guys like crazy. Life just won't be the same when I don't have someone spouting out perverted jokes all the time!
Friend: Yeah, to be truthful ima miss you the most. you really became my closest friend
Me: <3. Thank you. but it feels like we're saying good bye and we're not just yet (aka, this is making me cry). but i'll definitely miss you lots. life just will not be the same, I'll only have a third of my brain trio around.
Friend: awwwwwwwww. I love you liz.
Me: lol. Love ya too <3

So apparently I haven't posted for a month. Is there a reason? Sure, it's called a life. I had a week off for spring break, a week of school, then another week off for testing. So lots of time off.

I can't say that anything too interesting has happened lately. Spring break was alright, did a lot of nothing. Finally started working on something that I needed to for awhile. Got a nice hefty scholarship done, but probably won't win. But oh well.

Last week was.... fun. I had a lot of time off, but also spent a lot of time with friends. I managed to finish season six of criminal minds. One last season to go!

I started to learn how to drive stick. It didn't end well because my friends got competitive and did stupid things. In a school parking lot. Yeah, not the best thing in the world. But you know what, I've stopped caring. My punishment, being guilty by association, was three days morning detention. It sucked because I usually sleep in, but for the most part it was OK. I got lots of reading done. My friends? 5 days suspension and like 10 community service hours. So yeah, they got hit hard.

While they've been out, I've been so lonely. I miss 'em like crazy and in the mean time, have been texting them. The conversation at the beginning was one that I had last night and it really got me thinking about how in five weeks, we're gonna be gone. I won't be able to see most of my friends anymore. It's kinda sad and scary. It seems like we're gonna pack in as much 'together' time as we can before we have to split ways. I'm probably going to be a mess when we finally graduate.

I've been so lazy these past few days. I should be working on stuff/homework right now, but I have NO motivation. Hopefully I get it all done during the weekend. It may be Easter, but I need something to do. I'm hoping I also sleep this weekend.

The grace of the Lord Jesus Christ be with your spirit.
-- Philemon 1:25