Last day of April, and it snows. What is this?
Blarg. I'm feeling really bad right now. I'm feeling like I did last friday- like I just want to curl up and sleep for hours. My most recent math test? 73. Granted, that is better than I thought I would do. But I was feeling bad before I found that out.
I had a fairly good week. NHS, volunteer hours on Monday. Tuesday, normal. Wednesday, choir and it was really fun. Thursday, math test. Today... nothing day. Went out to celebrate my sister's birthday (which isn't for another week). Had stir fry and ice cream. Twas yummy.
I get home and I'm just like, "bleh." Don't want to interact with people for a few days.
Oh, I'm not sure if I've mentioned this- but my sister's boyfriend is moving in. He just finished moving out of his old apartment and is now part of ours. It'sll take some time for things to be situated but that's how it goes.
Hmmmmm.... what else...?
Oh. I know. Guys. They are very confusing. I think I've got them figured out and then I'm not so sure. I guess I'll never know, but that's OK for now. I guess right now I'm just happy that he doesn't hate me...
And that's my week in a nutshell.
I know that my Redeemer lives, and that in the end he will stand
upon the earth.
-- Job 19:25
Friday
Tuesday
Ok, this is kinda sad... I was looking through some old status updates I had. One of them was "I'm ready when you're ready for me" because it's a line from one of the songs I really like right now. Three minutes later... "It's quite ironic that in life, the person that brings out the best in you and the one that makes you strong is also your greatest weakness" from a guy that used to like me, that I like now... and he might still like me. I don't know for sure. I didn't realize that until today. I know it probably doesn't mean anything but still... geez. Talk about coincidence, right?
Anyhow, yesterday I got inducted to national honor society. Never again do I want to wear heels. How do some girls do it?!?!
Otherwise, my life hasn't been that interesting besides starting to write a new story.
You know that it was not with perishable things such as silver
or gold that you were redeemed from the empty way of life handed
down to you from your forefathers, but with the precious blood of
Christ, a lamb without blemish or defect.
-- 1 Peter 1:18-19
Anyhow, yesterday I got inducted to national honor society. Never again do I want to wear heels. How do some girls do it?!?!
Otherwise, my life hasn't been that interesting besides starting to write a new story.
You know that it was not with perishable things such as silver
or gold that you were redeemed from the empty way of life handed
down to you from your forefathers, but with the precious blood of
Christ, a lamb without blemish or defect.
-- 1 Peter 1:18-19
Friday
I don't even know anymore.
I was having a pretty good week. At least, I think I was. I can't really remember much... it's all a bit sketchy. Monday... was pretty cool. Tuesday.... was empty. Wednesday... was good. Started choreography in choir, which really isn't that good. Also started work on school service hours... planted a tree :D. Then Thursday... took a math test (that I did fairly well on), did some more service hours. Then today... kinda went through the motions. It's friday, and I just die on Fridays. Took a test in history (did well on that one, too). And helped my history teacher grade tests... it's funny because I did what his student aids could do in an hour... in about 10 minutes. XD. Epic. Fail.
Anyhow, maybe as a senior I'll aid for him. He's a pretty cool teacher. And it's not like I'd end up doing much anyway... :P.
It's been pretty rainy and icky all day. It's nice.
Then for the past like... week at least my friend has been going on and on and on and on and on and on and... on about she's so upset about the fact that the guy she likes is basically having sex with another girl. I just want her to shut up. Yes, I understand you're upset but seriously? When that's the only thing you talk about. God Damn. Seriously?!?
Hmm... anyway.... I dunno. I'm tired. I want to go to sleep and not wake up until Monday, get inducted to NHS (national honor society), go back to bed and not get up until I have to get Confirmed. Then I can survive school.
*sigh*
Ooooh... my sister's boyfriend is staying with us for awhile. Don't know why, don't want to know. But this will be interesting...
Where, O death, is your victory? Where, O death, is your sting?
The sting of death is sin, and the power of sin is the law. But
thanks be to God! He gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus
Christ.
-- 1 Corinthians 15:55-57
I was having a pretty good week. At least, I think I was. I can't really remember much... it's all a bit sketchy. Monday... was pretty cool. Tuesday.... was empty. Wednesday... was good. Started choreography in choir, which really isn't that good. Also started work on school service hours... planted a tree :D. Then Thursday... took a math test (that I did fairly well on), did some more service hours. Then today... kinda went through the motions. It's friday, and I just die on Fridays. Took a test in history (did well on that one, too). And helped my history teacher grade tests... it's funny because I did what his student aids could do in an hour... in about 10 minutes. XD. Epic. Fail.
Anyhow, maybe as a senior I'll aid for him. He's a pretty cool teacher. And it's not like I'd end up doing much anyway... :P.
It's been pretty rainy and icky all day. It's nice.
Then for the past like... week at least my friend has been going on and on and on and on and on and on and... on about she's so upset about the fact that the guy she likes is basically having sex with another girl. I just want her to shut up. Yes, I understand you're upset but seriously? When that's the only thing you talk about. God Damn. Seriously?!?
Hmm... anyway.... I dunno. I'm tired. I want to go to sleep and not wake up until Monday, get inducted to NHS (national honor society), go back to bed and not get up until I have to get Confirmed. Then I can survive school.
*sigh*
Ooooh... my sister's boyfriend is staying with us for awhile. Don't know why, don't want to know. But this will be interesting...
Where, O death, is your victory? Where, O death, is your sting?
The sting of death is sin, and the power of sin is the law. But
thanks be to God! He gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus
Christ.
-- 1 Corinthians 15:55-57
Sunday
So, I was at a retreat this weekend. I'll be honest.... I wasn't going into it with an open mind. I just kinda figured it was a waste of my weekend and I could have done better things with my time (Lol, I probably wouldn't have).
Saturday morning I forget to turn off my alarm so I'm up at 6:30. I just lay in bed for about an hour and then decide to get up.I eat a little breakfast and just laze around, packing up a little bit. I finish packing up and my sister has me do some chores. Finally, it was time to leave.
I got there around 9:30, but I didn't spend a lot of time there. I had to go sing for a First Communion Mass. It was 2 hours (almost) so I didn't get back to the retreat until almost noon. Had this little discussion, played duck, duck goose. it was all great until guys got competitive and broke stuff :P. Then we had lunch. The girls and guys were split up and we were in our respective rooms. Talked some more.
Then we grouped back together and...... I can't remember. We had the option to go to confession or just go into the church and pray (which is what I did- I lost track of time so bad. It ends up that I was praying for almost a half hour). There was a lot of free time for the rest of the day and it kinda made me wonder. Anyhow, there was dinner and then we tried to do praise and worship singing... it did not work out well. Then we did adoration. Now, adoration with this group of people tends to be a very interesting thing. It started off with a lot of people crying hysterically. Then people starting laughing. I was just sitting there, head bowed and just trying to focus on God. While all these people are laughing, I'm starting to tear up. It's nothing new because it happens a lot during adoration.
Then I felt almost all of the physical aspects of crying- my chin started to quiver, my body began shaking a little bit and stuff like that. Now some of the leaders were going around and praying over people. By this point I felt a hand on my shoulder and I realized I was crying. Like, actual tears. It wasn't the sobbing that everyone else had... just quiet tears. I'm able to calm down enough to feel my friend Nicole pass me a tissue. Shortly after they had us calm down and do an activity... basically right some nice things you see in people that you got to know that day. It was hard because I was basically attached to Nicole the whole day XD. But I managed to do all 6. I only got two (hahahahaha. How lame am I?). But one was very touching to me. Here's what it said: "You have a very calm soul. I never see you scream or yell, it is nice to [see] such a peace and serenity in such a young person. You seem wise beyond years, share what you know with others. I feel like God is calling you to that."
Just something about that... I'm not sure what it was... but something about what he said... I dunno. it's hard to explain. Anyhow, after that was even more free time.
At midnight they rounded us up and separated us so we could sleep... (yeah right). The girls debated keeping the lights on or off... (we turned them off) and people were talking. Finally I decided that I had enough with the talking and told them to (politely) shut up. And they did. Woah.
Then at 4AM Nicole and I had to get up to do another half hour of adoration. We did slightly less and went back to sleep. Finally at 8 they woke us up. Got ready, ate breakfast. Played Simon says, heard one more person talk. Presented some stuff. Had more group discussions and then went to Church, where we all tried not to fall asleep.
Once I got home I took a nap. And then I used the computer (Oh sweet technology, how I missed it). And I'm happy. Tired, but happy.
At just the right time, when we were still powerless, Christ
died for the ungodly. Very rarely will anyone die for a righteous
man, though for a good man someone might possibly dare to die. But
God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still
sinners, Christ died for us.
-- Romans 5:6-8
Saturday morning I forget to turn off my alarm so I'm up at 6:30. I just lay in bed for about an hour and then decide to get up.I eat a little breakfast and just laze around, packing up a little bit. I finish packing up and my sister has me do some chores. Finally, it was time to leave.
I got there around 9:30, but I didn't spend a lot of time there. I had to go sing for a First Communion Mass. It was 2 hours (almost) so I didn't get back to the retreat until almost noon. Had this little discussion, played duck, duck goose. it was all great until guys got competitive and broke stuff :P. Then we had lunch. The girls and guys were split up and we were in our respective rooms. Talked some more.
Then we grouped back together and...... I can't remember. We had the option to go to confession or just go into the church and pray (which is what I did- I lost track of time so bad. It ends up that I was praying for almost a half hour). There was a lot of free time for the rest of the day and it kinda made me wonder. Anyhow, there was dinner and then we tried to do praise and worship singing... it did not work out well. Then we did adoration. Now, adoration with this group of people tends to be a very interesting thing. It started off with a lot of people crying hysterically. Then people starting laughing. I was just sitting there, head bowed and just trying to focus on God. While all these people are laughing, I'm starting to tear up. It's nothing new because it happens a lot during adoration.
Then I felt almost all of the physical aspects of crying- my chin started to quiver, my body began shaking a little bit and stuff like that. Now some of the leaders were going around and praying over people. By this point I felt a hand on my shoulder and I realized I was crying. Like, actual tears. It wasn't the sobbing that everyone else had... just quiet tears. I'm able to calm down enough to feel my friend Nicole pass me a tissue. Shortly after they had us calm down and do an activity... basically right some nice things you see in people that you got to know that day. It was hard because I was basically attached to Nicole the whole day XD. But I managed to do all 6. I only got two (hahahahaha. How lame am I?). But one was very touching to me. Here's what it said: "You have a very calm soul. I never see you scream or yell, it is nice to [see] such a peace and serenity in such a young person. You seem wise beyond years, share what you know with others. I feel like God is calling you to that."
Just something about that... I'm not sure what it was... but something about what he said... I dunno. it's hard to explain. Anyhow, after that was even more free time.
At midnight they rounded us up and separated us so we could sleep... (yeah right). The girls debated keeping the lights on or off... (we turned them off) and people were talking. Finally I decided that I had enough with the talking and told them to (politely) shut up. And they did. Woah.
Then at 4AM Nicole and I had to get up to do another half hour of adoration. We did slightly less and went back to sleep. Finally at 8 they woke us up. Got ready, ate breakfast. Played Simon says, heard one more person talk. Presented some stuff. Had more group discussions and then went to Church, where we all tried not to fall asleep.
Once I got home I took a nap. And then I used the computer (Oh sweet technology, how I missed it). And I'm happy. Tired, but happy.
At just the right time, when we were still powerless, Christ
died for the ungodly. Very rarely will anyone die for a righteous
man, though for a good man someone might possibly dare to die. But
God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still
sinners, Christ died for us.
-- Romans 5:6-8
Thursday
So. Today I almost got run over. It's not as bad as it sounds, really. I was crossing fairly busy street. However, the cross walk signal SAID I could. So I did. I'm at the median, getting ready to cross the next two lanes. I'm about to take my step and a car goes right in front of me. And I mean right in front of me. I could have reached out and touched the car. With my very fast comprehension, I'm starting at the lady in the car with my arms out, giving her the "What the hell?" look. I didn't even see her face, though. I finish crossing the street and think.... "God. People are idiots." It made me mad more than scared me.
I had my parent/teacher/student advisory this morning. Oh yes, up at the glorious 7AM. That was fun. However, the conference wasn't that bad. It was a quick little ten minute meeting. It was like, "You have all your credits, good. Your grades are good, keep going. Any ideas about college? Not getting bullied? Awesome, we're done" XD. Literally. It was awesome. Imma have to visit him from time to time...
Also, today I was actually productive. I did homework... I finished English and almost all of History. Now it's math and study for a math test... *gulp*
On another note... only 3 more confirmation classes and a retreat.... then I don't have to spend anymore time in that darn room again!
I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but
Christ lives in me. The life I live in the body, I live by faith in
the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.
-- Galatians 2:20
I had my parent/teacher/student advisory this morning. Oh yes, up at the glorious 7AM. That was fun. However, the conference wasn't that bad. It was a quick little ten minute meeting. It was like, "You have all your credits, good. Your grades are good, keep going. Any ideas about college? Not getting bullied? Awesome, we're done" XD. Literally. It was awesome. Imma have to visit him from time to time...
Also, today I was actually productive. I did homework... I finished English and almost all of History. Now it's math and study for a math test... *gulp*
On another note... only 3 more confirmation classes and a retreat.... then I don't have to spend anymore time in that darn room again!
I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but
Christ lives in me. The life I live in the body, I live by faith in
the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.
-- Galatians 2:20
Wednesday
I have this irrational fear that people say one thing to my face, and then another behind my back. Sure, everyone fears that but for some reason I've been fearing it more so lately. I don't have a reason too, either. It's just that nagging feeling... meh. People can say what they want.
But I have the week off (ok, most of the week). It's been pretty good. I've... slacked off, did no homework like I said I would, cleaned (GASP!), watched a movie with my friends and started to watch season 1 of Avatar: The Last Airbender. Goodness.... the show was so dorky. But I love it anyway <3.
Anyhow, I'm reeeaaalllyyyy sore today. I have no idea what I did the other day that made me so sore. Coughing and sneezing hurt. D:. At least I'm not doing either of those much.
I finally decided to get some work done. I have my English paper in front of me. I have no idea what changes I'm making. But ya know... it's doing something productive. I imagine I'm going to be doing a lot of work tomorrow. I have math homework, history homework and a Latin packet for English. Yuck. Now I know why procrastinating is bad.
I realized that I am such a dork. I watched Ninja Warrior this morning (at the very pleasant 8 AM) and realized that I can't wait for the new tournament on Saturday :D.
Hmmmm.... what else, what else....
I've felt unexplainable guilt and happiness in the past few days. The guilt part is because I turned a friend in for smoking on campus. The happiness because I've been trusted by another friend. Also because I managed to have a good conversation with another person just days before Easter.
And that person has no idea how special they are to me. <3. And whenever I tell them.... they don't believe me. I'll keep trying until they understand.
All the plans for getting me a car have fallen through :(. Patience. Patience.
Parent/Teacher/Student conference for me tomorrow. I get to be up at the glorious hour of 7AM to tell my sister the stuff she already knows. yayyyyyyy.
That is all....
Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our
faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning
its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.
-- Hebrews 12:2
But I have the week off (ok, most of the week). It's been pretty good. I've... slacked off, did no homework like I said I would, cleaned (GASP!), watched a movie with my friends and started to watch season 1 of Avatar: The Last Airbender. Goodness.... the show was so dorky. But I love it anyway <3.
Anyhow, I'm reeeaaalllyyyy sore today. I have no idea what I did the other day that made me so sore. Coughing and sneezing hurt. D:. At least I'm not doing either of those much.
I finally decided to get some work done. I have my English paper in front of me. I have no idea what changes I'm making. But ya know... it's doing something productive. I imagine I'm going to be doing a lot of work tomorrow. I have math homework, history homework and a Latin packet for English. Yuck. Now I know why procrastinating is bad.
I realized that I am such a dork. I watched Ninja Warrior this morning (at the very pleasant 8 AM) and realized that I can't wait for the new tournament on Saturday :D.
Hmmmm.... what else, what else....
I've felt unexplainable guilt and happiness in the past few days. The guilt part is because I turned a friend in for smoking on campus. The happiness because I've been trusted by another friend. Also because I managed to have a good conversation with another person just days before Easter.
And that person has no idea how special they are to me. <3. And whenever I tell them.... they don't believe me. I'll keep trying until they understand.
All the plans for getting me a car have fallen through :(. Patience. Patience.
Parent/Teacher/Student conference for me tomorrow. I get to be up at the glorious hour of 7AM to tell my sister the stuff she already knows. yayyyyyyy.
That is all....
Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our
faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning
its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.
-- Hebrews 12:2
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