You learn something new every day.

Apparently my parents knew each other (or dated or SOMETHING) for three months before they decided to get married. They've been married about 33 years.

My oldest sibling is going to turn 33 in March. Hmmm....

haha.

Tonight's been a good night. I did not fight with my family, nor did anyone else fight. The food was good and I got stuff done.

Overall, this Thanksgiving was amazing. Best I've had in years.

There does come a moment when you have to think about all the things that are good in your life. And I did.

First and foremost. I was glad that I woke up. Happy. I wasn't angry. I wasn't upset. I wasn't feeling the deepness of depression. I was happy. That alone made my day.

Family. Sure I complain about them all the time, but I don't know what I'd do without them. They are my life. I love 'em and I can't imagine life without them. They work so hard at everything they do. They are the selfless ones.

Of course my friends. Without them I wouldn't be anywhere close to where I am right now. They've taken me places. I'm also grateful for how much they love. I am continually amazed by them. They're pretty much the best things ever.

Despite how it fails, my health.

Every single privilege I have. School. Being literate. Having a car. Having a house. Having food. Being able to stay warm. Knowing that I'm safe. All of this. I can't imagine my life any different.

I tell you the truth, anyone who gives you a cup of water in my
name because you belong to Christ will certainly not lose his
reward.
-- Mark 9:41

So... it's the day before Thanksgiving. It's the time when everyone thinks about the things they're grateful for, and maybe even reflect upon the past year.

I'm amazed at how much things have changed in a year. About this time last year I made the same trek, feeling almost exactly the same way. However, for two very different reasons. Last year I was angry and upset because of work. This year it's because of a fight. Unlike last year, I didn't cry on the way home. Life has been stupid, crazy, and amazing this last year.

This long weekend is also the time I take for myself. I'm angry, frustrated, and irritated and I don't want to have to deal with people. So I won't. This will be a very family focused next few days. And homework orientated because I'm a slacker.

Sometimes it doesn't look like it, but I'm extremely thankful for the life I live. And it was just proven to me that I act like a total brat sometimes. I'm just used to getting my way.... as well as being left alone.

I need to refocus. I need to stop and think of how my life is going, and where my life is going. I'm also a little terrified. It's something stupid, so I'm not going to detail it. But my future is... well... now my dream from before makes even more sense.

I hope that all of you have an amazing Thanksgiving!

Nobody should seek his own good, but the good of others.
-- 1 Corinthians 10:24

Sometimes I hate being everybody's therapist.

I also hate when people continually whine to me about the same things over and over again.

People just annoy the heck out of me. I need a weekend alone sometime soon. Ugh.

Oh well. I'm going to try not to be irritated....

*Sigh*

I finished NaNo today. Story isn't done, so I'll still be working til the end of the month, just not has hard.

I don't really wanna post while I'm in such a bad mood. So.... later. Or never.
Open my eyes that I may see wonderful things in your law.
-- Psalm 119:18

So it's Monday morning and I'm doing all that I can to make this a happy day. I finished my quilt last night and just have some clean-up things to take care of. I am taking a break from NaNo writing (I'm just past 34k, I think I can take a morning off), I curled my hair (even though by the time I get to school it's going to be completely flat), and I'm listening to Needtobreathe. So far it should be a good day, but I can't say. I'll probably fall and hurt something.

This weekend was kinda iffy, but talking about it is not a good idea. I'll just say I had a productive Friday. Days off are nice. I feel considerably less stressed right now.

I'm trying not to give in to this foul mood that seems to want to be plaguing me.

I've started meditating before I go to bed. It's nice, but then again I'm only on day two. I'm also trying to see if I can do... anything to help get rid of my hip/knee pain. So far it's not working, but I need a few weeks.

Otherwise, life isn't bad. Not for me at least. For some of my other friends it's been hard, but I feel removed from the situation. I'll just continue to be a friend and be there for him.

I had a few dreams this past weekend. They weren't anything astounding. But overall one of them (the one I remember most) is basically affirming the fact that I am in control. I know where I'm going (well, almost) and I'm going to be facing any obstacles with confidence. It feels weird to have a dream that says that, but I think it's true. For once I'm ready to make my own decisions and I'm going to do what I want.

I got an acceptance letter from Loyola on Thursday. That makes three, and I'm really excited about it. Two more to go.

Though you have not seen him, you love him; and even though you
do not see him now, you believe in him and are filled with an
inexpressible and glorious joy, for you are receiving the goal of
your faith, the salvation of your souls.
-- 1 Peter 1:8-9

I've been on a bit of a blogging hiatus. On purpose. I'm doing little 'life reevaluation' and it's not going so well. But, that's beside the point.

I have no idea when I last posted, so I'll just say that Halloween was alright. I had a long day and I crashed so early. But I found and wore obnoxious orange tights so it was cool. I guess. I dunno what I'm saying anymore...

Life, in general, has been ok. The pain started coming back on Friday, so I have to try to not think about it. Or figure out what's wrong.

I'm terrified about college, as per usual.

I'm doing NaNo, despite the fact that I really shouldn't. I'm about 18k into it, so I'm making pretty good progress.

Uhmm... yeah. I should be writing right now but I'm procrastinating. I can afford to, but I wanna keep up the momentum.

In your unfailing love you will lead the people you have
redeemed. In your strength you will guide them to your holy
dwelling.
-- Exodus 15:13