Life's been a bit funky lately.
Some days... I don't want to get out of bed at all. Some nights... I can't wait to go to bed and fall asleep.
Other days, I'm so happy that I can't even begin to describe. I know what I have, and I'm glad.
Damn hormones.
But yeah... today, Matt said he has hit two days sober (er... druggie... I guess I forgot to mention that... ^^')
And idk, I know he can make the change. I wonder how committed he is, though. I don't want to doubt, it though. I have faith in him, and I wonder if anyone else does. It's so much harder when you only have one person to cheer you on.
But, I think I need to take a lesson from Iroh. I can support him full-heartily and it won't matter if I'm the only one that has faith in him. Maybe he'll see that at least one person is there for him.
(And for all of you who may/may not wonder: I do not like him. Only in an acquaintance way).
:\ Anyway.
Trig D:
Well, I'm getting a taste of what I signed myself up for next year. Joy oh joy. It's not that bad, but still. If I had known I was going to be doing a little bit of trig in 9th grade... ugh. *sigh* Wish me luck!
My friend may have torn a muscle. I sort of hope not, but it's a strong possibility. And I'm the one that played doctor and kinda gave a tentative diagnosis. I hope to God I'm wrong and that it's just a bad strain.
*Sigh* There's this one girl in my PE class that everyone in my group (aka the group she hangs out with) is getting sick of. She is seriously annoying and like, everyone wants to get rid of her. Including me. I know it's mean... buuttt. :\ Erg. She is just a pain! 18 days left of school. Hopefully I won't have to deal with her for more than.... 15 days?
Performances coming up. Eeek.
I have a drama performance late May. Monologue I've been working my butt off with (>< I wanna see how my friends like it. I seriously do.) and a scene which I'm still getting down. Or at least trying to. Pretty interesting.
Then choir... uber soon. Like... a week? Eeekkkkk. Grease. Dancing. Singing. 50's. Uh-oh.
Ah well, so life goes. I'm just super anxious to get out of school and go see my friends that live out of town. ^^ *sigh* 18 looong days.
Oh... and I'm a huge wuss. I won't go into details but... :\ if you wanna know, I'll tell.
Tuesday
Thursday
Guys are confusing.
D:
So, I have this guy friend, Michael. For awhile... we would barely talk to each other. Some days, we would barely even look at each other! But maybe like a week or two ago... we started talking again. He began to joke around with me... (flirting?)
He started replying to my texts.
Just this morning, he walked up to me while I was at my locker and started a conversation with me. He stayed and conversed with me and my friends.
I dunno..... is he doing this because he likes me or has nothing better to do?
I have a feeling he is single (if he is telling the truth on his myspace. [which says he's single... and is there for friends and dating] :\)
D:
So, I have this guy friend, Michael. For awhile... we would barely talk to each other. Some days, we would barely even look at each other! But maybe like a week or two ago... we started talking again. He began to joke around with me... (flirting?)
He started replying to my texts.
Just this morning, he walked up to me while I was at my locker and started a conversation with me. He stayed and conversed with me and my friends.
I dunno..... is he doing this because he likes me or has nothing better to do?
I have a feeling he is single (if he is telling the truth on his myspace. [which says he's single... and is there for friends and dating] :\)
Tuesday
It's almost the end of the school year! Just about 5 weeks I believe. I can't wait! There's so much I want to say on how the school year has gone... but honestly, there's just too much. However, I know what I want to say to each of my friends that have been there throughout.
Ashley- The first friend of the school year. It's been awesome, and I'm super glad that I can call on you almost whenever. You have helped me through some tough times. You have also made me realize just who I am. I haven't had time to discover that yet, and you have helped me take that first step. All the inside jokes and everything, it's just been an awesome year.
Brianna- Hey, maybe it took awhile for us to start talking, but once we did, I could see that we would become pretty good friends. Maybe we don't hang out or talk as often as we would like. But, you're there and you help the artist in me. You are my more 'cultured' friend that knows how it is.
Cat- I will never get used to your thinking. It's just to random and off the wall. You always say things that nobody even thought of. (or at least, that I have thought of). You make life interesting. Maybe we don't meet eye to eye, but at least we've never fought. You can keep your cool... but I see how it is underneath. You are just a super fun person.
Kayla- We've spent everyday together. We know what each other is trying to say mid-way through a sentence. You brighten my day for sure. I know I can depend on you to follow through, and stick with whatever you are doing. I also know that you can be a klutz, but a graceful klutz.
Matt- I had my doubts about you. But, you're the one person that makes me look forward to English class. You just make me smile and laugh so much. You're and interesting guy and I guess I am glad to have you in my life. You are such an easy-going, mellow guy. It amazes me sometimes. But, thanks for always bringing a smile!
Michael- Haha. You always make my day. I can be having one of the worst days of my life, and you'll find a way to make it better. I don't think you know how much you mean to me. Maybe we don't know each other well, but you are still a major part of my life.
Sarah- Man, it took some time to hit it off. But, once we did, it was like a rocket. Your generally smiling face, happy disposition and everything. Our friendship just clicked. I love having you around to joke and laugh with. But, when things get serious... they get serious. I'm glad to have a friend that will be there for me.
Victoria- Alright, so we don't know each other that well. But, you are a wonderful person to talk to. You know how it is. I only wish I could have gotten to know you better. You seem like a nice and kind person. A friend that everyone needs.
Ashley- The first friend of the school year. It's been awesome, and I'm super glad that I can call on you almost whenever. You have helped me through some tough times. You have also made me realize just who I am. I haven't had time to discover that yet, and you have helped me take that first step. All the inside jokes and everything, it's just been an awesome year.
Brianna- Hey, maybe it took awhile for us to start talking, but once we did, I could see that we would become pretty good friends. Maybe we don't hang out or talk as often as we would like. But, you're there and you help the artist in me. You are my more 'cultured' friend that knows how it is.
Cat- I will never get used to your thinking. It's just to random and off the wall. You always say things that nobody even thought of. (or at least, that I have thought of). You make life interesting. Maybe we don't meet eye to eye, but at least we've never fought. You can keep your cool... but I see how it is underneath. You are just a super fun person.
Kayla- We've spent everyday together. We know what each other is trying to say mid-way through a sentence. You brighten my day for sure. I know I can depend on you to follow through, and stick with whatever you are doing. I also know that you can be a klutz, but a graceful klutz.
Matt- I had my doubts about you. But, you're the one person that makes me look forward to English class. You just make me smile and laugh so much. You're and interesting guy and I guess I am glad to have you in my life. You are such an easy-going, mellow guy. It amazes me sometimes. But, thanks for always bringing a smile!
Michael- Haha. You always make my day. I can be having one of the worst days of my life, and you'll find a way to make it better. I don't think you know how much you mean to me. Maybe we don't know each other well, but you are still a major part of my life.
Sarah- Man, it took some time to hit it off. But, once we did, it was like a rocket. Your generally smiling face, happy disposition and everything. Our friendship just clicked. I love having you around to joke and laugh with. But, when things get serious... they get serious. I'm glad to have a friend that will be there for me.
Victoria- Alright, so we don't know each other that well. But, you are a wonderful person to talk to. You know how it is. I only wish I could have gotten to know you better. You seem like a nice and kind person. A friend that everyone needs.
Friday
Why the hell do I feel like crying?
Why am I feeling so horrible right now?
I really wish I knew. Because I'm feeling like I did in 6th grade. It's terrifying. I really don't like it but I can't get myself out of it. I've been trying to figure out... and I can't think of anything.
I wanna cry. I can't. The tears just won't come out. This is the time where I wish I could show my emotions.
This is the time where I wish people would be talking to me. Trying to figure out. Help me!
We'll see. We'll see.
Why am I feeling so horrible right now?
I really wish I knew. Because I'm feeling like I did in 6th grade. It's terrifying. I really don't like it but I can't get myself out of it. I've been trying to figure out... and I can't think of anything.
I wanna cry. I can't. The tears just won't come out. This is the time where I wish I could show my emotions.
This is the time where I wish people would be talking to me. Trying to figure out. Help me!
We'll see. We'll see.
Thursday
haha
Just a funny thought from today.
My friend was playing with my water bottle... and for some reason I was just kinda like... "NO" and stuff. At first I was like, "Give it back" just hoping she would
Then after going at it... and she didn't give it back I was all. "Give it to me. NOW" in a super stern voice with a death glare. (Could you tell I was in a bad-ish mood?)
She paused for a moment... then gave it back to me.
That counted for my friends to start joking. One person was saying something how I could walk into a cave of terrorists and be like, "Surrender" with the glare and all that. They'd pause... raise their hands and be like, "We surrender!"
Haha. That just amused me to no end.
I'm wondering...
How do you tell a person that bugs you to no end to just stop talking to you?
Just a funny thought from today.
My friend was playing with my water bottle... and for some reason I was just kinda like... "NO" and stuff. At first I was like, "Give it back" just hoping she would
Then after going at it... and she didn't give it back I was all. "Give it to me. NOW" in a super stern voice with a death glare. (Could you tell I was in a bad-ish mood?)
She paused for a moment... then gave it back to me.
That counted for my friends to start joking. One person was saying something how I could walk into a cave of terrorists and be like, "Surrender" with the glare and all that. They'd pause... raise their hands and be like, "We surrender!"
Haha. That just amused me to no end.
I'm wondering...
How do you tell a person that bugs you to no end to just stop talking to you?
Saturday
Ooops. Blog neglect, sorry!!!
Not much going on here... just life. Getting ready for Easter. Not much fun, either. I'm so bored.
But I have to say that the Passion Play the confirmation class over here puts on is amazing. No matter how many times I see it, I'm always freaked out by the same thing... the thunder. It's just.... kinda scary. Lol.
*sigh* I know there's much more that has gone on, but I can't remember. So I'll just say that school's almost over and I can't wait! (like.... 6 weeks left!)
Summer is going to be awesome.
Not much going on here... just life. Getting ready for Easter. Not much fun, either. I'm so bored.
But I have to say that the Passion Play the confirmation class over here puts on is amazing. No matter how many times I see it, I'm always freaked out by the same thing... the thunder. It's just.... kinda scary. Lol.
*sigh* I know there's much more that has gone on, but I can't remember. So I'll just say that school's almost over and I can't wait! (like.... 6 weeks left!)
Summer is going to be awesome.
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