Secrets time!

You've caused me to be a romantic. I never used to really be like this. I mean, sure I always thought about it.... but it's so weird for it to actually be real. I'm hoping it just gets better... Happy one month :) <3. (It's also hard for me to believe that it's been a month, but I'm completely overjoyed. I am sad that you'll be out of town for it, but I guess it'll all be made up when we hang out for like ten hours on Prom anyway).

Sometimes I think you need to let me be. I do what I want, and I do what you want me to as well. No one ever said that I was going to shirk my responsibilities. It might not be done as soon as you want, but it's done on my own schedule. Which, coincidentally, is how it's going to be in real life.

I feel like I am such a whiner to you, but you take it well. You sympathize, and I learn to draw back a little. You're one of the reasons I still have some sanity. I don't think I ever really tell you how much I truly appreciate you!

There's one song that, when it plays, I always think of you. The past is long gone, but it never goes away. I try to equate it with somebody new, but it just doesn't work. I guess I'm stuck remembering my past for those three and a half minutes.

Your hugs always make me feel special. That's all that matters.

I look back on my life and realize how far I've come. I'm proud of where I've gotten myself.

He knows the way that I take; when he has tested me, I will come
forth as gold. My feet have closely followed his steps; I have kept
to his way without turning aside.
-- Job 23:10-11

My internet hasn't been working the past nearly two weeks, so I've just been really productive doing other things. This is going to be a short post, seeing as how I should be working, even as I type.

Either way, life has been good to me lately. http://www.blogger.com/post-create.g?blogID=3388774983852647981I submitted three entries to my school's literary magazine, and all three got in! We'll see if they stay in, and hopefully they will. That really did make my day.

Standardized testing done and over with, hopefully I passed all sections and can graduate! I would be so upset if I didn't.

Uhmm.... yeah. I've been up and down these past few days, but all in all it hasn't been bad. I've been studying for my AP tests, and I realize how hard they're going to be. I'm kinda scared...

AH geez. I really can't think of much. I'm waiting for Prom next month! WHoooo...

Yeah, life has been what it normally is.

Hate evil, love good; maintain justice in the courts. Perhaps
the LORD God Almighty will have mercy on the remnant of Joseph.
-- Amos 5:15

I've been feeling particularly grateful these past few days. I mean, granted it's because I've been happy and such but I don't think it detracts any. I think it actually makes it better. People seem to only be grateful when they've lost something, and are down. I'm feeling grateful, and I've gained something... incredible I guess.

I guess I am overreacting about it, but as one of my friends kept saying over the past few days- "You deserve to be happy". You know what? I agree. I SHOULD be happy, shouldn't I? I have nothing to complain about. I never have, but that didn't stop me before.

Life was turning up, even before the certain event that has just made me explode with happiness. It's weird to think about it. I don't think reality has even set in yet, really...

My sleep schedule has been a bit wonky, but I'm hoping it evens out soon. I do think that I've started coping with it better, though. If I'm lucky, I only have two really crabby days a month.

Anyhow, maybe detailing my past week is in order?

Monday- Normal day as usual, I chickened out of something I needed to do. No surprise there.

Tuesday- I did what I was supposed to do the day before. It was a "meh" day, but I think it went OK.

Wednesday- Recovering from a night of awful sleep, had some nightmares that were really jarring. I felt like a mental breakdown was in order.

Thursday- Best day of the week, an important event happened. Let's just say, I'm no longer single.

Friday- Oh bajeezus. Not only was it awesome hearing everyone's reactions, but I felt amazing. I mean, lack of sleep again, but so life goes. And apparently international pigtail day.

Today- Sleep, tanned (NOT BURN. OMG) and had a fun first date. (Or technically second...?). Either way, I think it was a good day.

Tomorrow; life.

The Lord is my Shepherd, I shall not be in want. He makes me lie
down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters, he
restores my soul.
-- Psalm 23:1-3