GASP! it's almost new years and I haven't started the blog yet! Haha. Oh well. I'm sure I wouldn't put anything interesting in anyway.

It was a good year. New friends, new beginnings and some big problems

I was able to become more open and get out of my shell. I didn't think it was possible but it is. I'm not any skinnier, I only limited my computer usage for the first like... month... I still procrastinate and well... I totally am not letting my crushes know I like them :P.

So, my resolutions for next year?

1) LOSE WEIGHT!
2) Do better in math
3) Pray more
4) Write at least once a week
5) Procrastinate... less?
6) Learn something new
7) Stop focusing on the negative.

Tada! The last few are open for interpretation, but I know it's stuff I need to work on. (Especially 5). I think I can accomplish a lot of it. (Maybe not the first two).

So, basically... I'm so different from when I was last year. I've grown up and relapsed. I've started to come to terms with myself, and with what I do. I know I'm not all that I can be, but I can change. However, I know for sure that I have people that depend on me, and I know never again will I visit depression land. I'm done and over with it. Never will I think that I'm not worth it or that no one loves me. And never will I become cocky. I resolve that this up coming year is going to be filled with laughter, smiles and a lot of happy times. Friends, Family, Happiness and God. I'm all set.

I will live everyday I have for God. Whatever happens, I want him to be there and be proud of me. I want to love him as much as he loves me. I want him to look at me and smile. I want to see him and know that I've done all that I need to do. I'm here for a reason, and it's only begun. What I've done is only part of the reason why I'm here. Eleventyseven's "Beautiful" "Reach that far" and "How it feels" are the songs that basically sum up all that I wish I could say. I just don't know. I feel like I owe God so much. He gave me so much. I need to devote all I can to him. He is everything. So basically.... <3

There's nothing more I could ever hope for. I know my life is going to change so much in the next year. I hope it's good changes. Things that I can look back on and say... "I'm so glad that happened" I want to look back on the year and say... "Best year ever." I know I'll have my fair share of problems, but I hope they're minor and I can work through them. I just want to have a happy life.

So, this is my last post of 2009. Lets open up a new decade. :)

Christmas was amazing this year. It was all I could ever hope for.

I managed to be up early, not be crabby, be content with the presents I got, eat good food, and made up with a friend. It was fantastic. The snow stayed long enough for it to be pretty, but now it's melting and I'm happy with that.

I'm slowly plodding through my english project (that I should be working on now, to make up for lost time). I got a new phone the other day (an awesome touch screen phone that I've been playing with...) aaandddd... I'm managing not to be irritated by my friend. It's been pretty good all around.

D:

The math final I studied so hard for...

I got a 67. seriously. I mean, I'm still passing but... grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. I studied SO HARD for the class. I wanted to get above a 70. It didn't hurt my grade too much... I'm at a 72. What I was before I took the test last week.

My other finals I'm confident about. I'm just praying so hard that everything will go alright.

Ok, so I am really smiley right now.

I got back from confirmation class and we had to choose gifts or fruits of the Holy Spirit. (We didn't know what they were until we opened the box, however). I got Faithfulness. It gave me the boost I needed to know that... I know what God has been telling me. I just need to make the extra push and do it. That's what my next week is going to be. :) I also got a glow in the dark rosary that I plan on using very soon.

I'm also on a hunt to choose my confirmation name. I'm really drawn to the name Grace. It's such a pretty name and it was supposed to be my mom's name. Plus, it flows really nicely with my name. Elizabeth Grace /insert last name here. :)

Annddd I finally was able to talk with my ex without it being awkward. Smiled, laughed (quietly) and had good times. What touched me was that he felt like he had to tell me that he had a new girlfriend or he'd feel like a *insert word you can't say in church*. (Just for the record, it started with A. :P). Honestly.... was I surprised? Not in the least. I am actually very happy for him. Now if only I could solve my single problem... j/k. I don't care too much about being single. (However, I insisted that I'd be single for a long time more, he insisted that I wouldn't be and "promised" me that "tomorrow" I'd find someone. Heh... we'll see). But yeah, I felt so much better and a weight is lifted off my shoulders. I feel like I can let this memory sit back and just stay back.

I think I'm starting a new leaf right now. I have a good feeling about this week. I really do.

Ooooh. Just to add, I went to my friend's birthday party the other day. I was able to successfully use chop sticks, (:D), had a desert that was on fire and annoy one of my buddies. :). Good weekend.

Just finals. And if I survive... I shall be very very happy.

So, basically... nothing.

Finals are coming up (just after this weekend). I'm going to go to my friend's birthday tomorrow. :D. That should be very fun.

I know this will be such a cliche thing to talk about... but I have no other place to put it. I know no one I talk to will be able to console me in the right way. I think I'm seriously done with guys. For a long time. (Just watch, I'll get a crush on a guy within the next week...).

Seriously. My crush on Rush dropped (meh. Normal). A guy I have no business liking found someone else (Normal as well) but I still like him (I should stop). There aren't any guys around me that I like. :\. I don't understand. Ok, actually I do. I'm always seen as the friend. Always. It doesn't matter if I flirt or not... (not like I ever do). Oh well.

Then there's... gah. I remember writing a little journal entry a few days ago. (Maybe a week?) how I found out why people think I'm older. I always present myself in a more mature way in class and to people I don't know... and supposedly I look older than 15/sophmore. I really don't understand that. /shrug. Oh well. I suppose people can think what they want.

But my goodness...

One of my friends is really stressed, and she might be sick. I don't know for sure, but I think another of my friends had a really frightening experience during lunch with the other friend. Prayers for her health, please. She does need it.

Hmm... lets see...

If things go well I can get my provisional in Feb. Meaning... I can drive without an adult in the car! :D

Er.. that should be all. Other than finals are going to kill me so hard. D:

Heh. Today was chilly.

Michael T... he refused to zip up his jacket because it wasn't 'hip'. XP

Well, nothing's cool about frostbite. Ya know, fingers turning black and falling off... :P :P


And then there's something about how I don't know about cool guys or something. And then... it all goes downhill.