GASP! it's almost new years and I haven't started the blog yet! Haha. Oh well. I'm sure I wouldn't put anything interesting in anyway.

It was a good year. New friends, new beginnings and some big problems

I was able to become more open and get out of my shell. I didn't think it was possible but it is. I'm not any skinnier, I only limited my computer usage for the first like... month... I still procrastinate and well... I totally am not letting my crushes know I like them :P.

So, my resolutions for next year?

1) LOSE WEIGHT!
2) Do better in math
3) Pray more
4) Write at least once a week
5) Procrastinate... less?
6) Learn something new
7) Stop focusing on the negative.

Tada! The last few are open for interpretation, but I know it's stuff I need to work on. (Especially 5). I think I can accomplish a lot of it. (Maybe not the first two).

So, basically... I'm so different from when I was last year. I've grown up and relapsed. I've started to come to terms with myself, and with what I do. I know I'm not all that I can be, but I can change. However, I know for sure that I have people that depend on me, and I know never again will I visit depression land. I'm done and over with it. Never will I think that I'm not worth it or that no one loves me. And never will I become cocky. I resolve that this up coming year is going to be filled with laughter, smiles and a lot of happy times. Friends, Family, Happiness and God. I'm all set.

I will live everyday I have for God. Whatever happens, I want him to be there and be proud of me. I want to love him as much as he loves me. I want him to look at me and smile. I want to see him and know that I've done all that I need to do. I'm here for a reason, and it's only begun. What I've done is only part of the reason why I'm here. Eleventyseven's "Beautiful" "Reach that far" and "How it feels" are the songs that basically sum up all that I wish I could say. I just don't know. I feel like I owe God so much. He gave me so much. I need to devote all I can to him. He is everything. So basically.... <3

There's nothing more I could ever hope for. I know my life is going to change so much in the next year. I hope it's good changes. Things that I can look back on and say... "I'm so glad that happened" I want to look back on the year and say... "Best year ever." I know I'll have my fair share of problems, but I hope they're minor and I can work through them. I just want to have a happy life.

So, this is my last post of 2009. Lets open up a new decade. :)