Monday

It always amazes me at how much people can hide behind a mask.

Some people are just so good at pretending that everything is OK. Sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't. I have a friend that is desperately trying to get herself on the right path. She is doing a good job, but she's struggling. Over the weekend, something bad happened. I'm not going into the details for her sake, but it's still jarring.

Today in photography, the beginning was a little saddening. She admitted what happened, she even cried. But... by the end we were just laughing and having so much fun.

I'm amazed at her strength. I just wish could be a better friend to her. I wish I could be a better support. I could be, but I just don't know how to be. Maybe just being there for her right now is good enough.

Sunday

What better to stop the blog neglect by posting a new blog? This one is an important one. This one is what truly needs to be said. This is the post that I have to have a constant reminder of.

I have a renewed faith in God. It was my first day back into confirmation. I know two people that are in year one. I'm sitting and waiting for my class to start. I realize something.

I know why I want to be confirmed.

I believe in GOD. I believe that Lord Jesus is my savior. I believe that the Holy Spirit is dwelling in me RIGHT NOW. I believe that being Catholic is the path my soul is destined to take. I believe that, even though I am not as spiritual as I should be, that it's never to late to change that. I believe that my soul is going to heaven, and I am going to see God.

Now, it's taken a long time for me to realize this. But, I realize that I need to start become a child, a warrior and a follower of God more than ever right now. I need to have Jesus worked into my life. I need him to be following me as I walk down hallways, I need him sitting next to me in my classes, I need him as I help my friend realize who her true friends are. I need him in everything I do.

What better time to ask him to be with me? I just got over a wave of stress, confirmation is starting again and I need something that will never change. I don't want to become someone who feels alone anymore. I'm tired of having a feeling of loneliness. I just need Jesus. I need him so much.

I don't want this to be a one day thing. I want this to reverberate through my whole week. I want this feeling to be re-energized with every passing day. Most importantly, I would LOVE prayers as I make my journey. My confirmation is supposed to be May 11th. It's a while away, but it's a day that I look forward too.

I love each and every one of you. I hope God blesses you all.