I was grounded from the computer over the weekend. What for? I got a 73% on a math test that I didn't know we were having.
Whaaa?
How does THAT make sense?
I dunno. But it does in my sister's mind. So I read a 400 page book all of Saturday. Practically all in one sitting. Crazy. I typically don't read a book that fast. Ever. But I guess since I had nothing better to do... *shrug*. I mean, it's not like I would've spent hours on homework...
Then, on Sunday I had my last confirmation class. :D. That makes me so happy. I won't ever have to step into that building and be tortured. Yessss.
Then today. It was actually a fairly good day for a Monday. Except for how I woke up. 6AM with a reaaaaaallllyyyy bad cramp. :(. Thankfully it went away and I kinda drifted off to sleep. Photo- worked a little bit on my project. Choir- finished learning choreography and worked up a sweat running through it all a bunch of times. But thankfully it's done now and just some polishing up. Dress rehearsal Wednesday and I can't wait. I have a really pretty Marilyn Monroe-esque dress. History- watched a movie about what to do if we were ever to have a nuclear bomb dropped on us... DUCK AND COVER! Then in English we read, wrote about what we were like as 7 year olds and then most of us read them out loud. I read mine out loud andd.... I wrote a lot. And I trip over my words... even when my writing makes perfect sense.
In other news... I'm actually excited for my choir performance. I mean, it's not a big deal because its show choir-y/musical theater and I don't really like performing that kind of stuff. However.... I think now that the hard part is over (aka, learning it all) it's the fun stuff. Being on stage. It's what I love. Too bad I'm basically giving it up. No more choir. No more acting. *shrug*
Let see... what else.. what else...
Oh. Choir just got really awkward. Because this year we actually have guys, so some of the girls are paired up and such. Today the director decides that I will have a partner for the last song. Whop. De. Do. I'm so excited. Can't you tell?
Anyhow, that's life.
Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer.
-- Romans 12:12
Monday
Friday
Last day of April, and it snows. What is this?
Blarg. I'm feeling really bad right now. I'm feeling like I did last friday- like I just want to curl up and sleep for hours. My most recent math test? 73. Granted, that is better than I thought I would do. But I was feeling bad before I found that out.
I had a fairly good week. NHS, volunteer hours on Monday. Tuesday, normal. Wednesday, choir and it was really fun. Thursday, math test. Today... nothing day. Went out to celebrate my sister's birthday (which isn't for another week). Had stir fry and ice cream. Twas yummy.
I get home and I'm just like, "bleh." Don't want to interact with people for a few days.
Oh, I'm not sure if I've mentioned this- but my sister's boyfriend is moving in. He just finished moving out of his old apartment and is now part of ours. It'sll take some time for things to be situated but that's how it goes.
Hmmmmm.... what else...?
Oh. I know. Guys. They are very confusing. I think I've got them figured out and then I'm not so sure. I guess I'll never know, but that's OK for now. I guess right now I'm just happy that he doesn't hate me...
And that's my week in a nutshell.
I know that my Redeemer lives, and that in the end he will stand
upon the earth.
-- Job 19:25
Blarg. I'm feeling really bad right now. I'm feeling like I did last friday- like I just want to curl up and sleep for hours. My most recent math test? 73. Granted, that is better than I thought I would do. But I was feeling bad before I found that out.
I had a fairly good week. NHS, volunteer hours on Monday. Tuesday, normal. Wednesday, choir and it was really fun. Thursday, math test. Today... nothing day. Went out to celebrate my sister's birthday (which isn't for another week). Had stir fry and ice cream. Twas yummy.
I get home and I'm just like, "bleh." Don't want to interact with people for a few days.
Oh, I'm not sure if I've mentioned this- but my sister's boyfriend is moving in. He just finished moving out of his old apartment and is now part of ours. It'sll take some time for things to be situated but that's how it goes.
Hmmmmm.... what else...?
Oh. I know. Guys. They are very confusing. I think I've got them figured out and then I'm not so sure. I guess I'll never know, but that's OK for now. I guess right now I'm just happy that he doesn't hate me...
And that's my week in a nutshell.
I know that my Redeemer lives, and that in the end he will stand
upon the earth.
-- Job 19:25
Tuesday
Ok, this is kinda sad... I was looking through some old status updates I had. One of them was "I'm ready when you're ready for me" because it's a line from one of the songs I really like right now. Three minutes later... "It's quite ironic that in life, the person that brings out the best in you and the one that makes you strong is also your greatest weakness" from a guy that used to like me, that I like now... and he might still like me. I don't know for sure. I didn't realize that until today. I know it probably doesn't mean anything but still... geez. Talk about coincidence, right?
Anyhow, yesterday I got inducted to national honor society. Never again do I want to wear heels. How do some girls do it?!?!
Otherwise, my life hasn't been that interesting besides starting to write a new story.
You know that it was not with perishable things such as silver
or gold that you were redeemed from the empty way of life handed
down to you from your forefathers, but with the precious blood of
Christ, a lamb without blemish or defect.
-- 1 Peter 1:18-19
Anyhow, yesterday I got inducted to national honor society. Never again do I want to wear heels. How do some girls do it?!?!
Otherwise, my life hasn't been that interesting besides starting to write a new story.
You know that it was not with perishable things such as silver
or gold that you were redeemed from the empty way of life handed
down to you from your forefathers, but with the precious blood of
Christ, a lamb without blemish or defect.
-- 1 Peter 1:18-19
Friday
I don't even know anymore.
I was having a pretty good week. At least, I think I was. I can't really remember much... it's all a bit sketchy. Monday... was pretty cool. Tuesday.... was empty. Wednesday... was good. Started choreography in choir, which really isn't that good. Also started work on school service hours... planted a tree :D. Then Thursday... took a math test (that I did fairly well on), did some more service hours. Then today... kinda went through the motions. It's friday, and I just die on Fridays. Took a test in history (did well on that one, too). And helped my history teacher grade tests... it's funny because I did what his student aids could do in an hour... in about 10 minutes. XD. Epic. Fail.
Anyhow, maybe as a senior I'll aid for him. He's a pretty cool teacher. And it's not like I'd end up doing much anyway... :P.
It's been pretty rainy and icky all day. It's nice.
Then for the past like... week at least my friend has been going on and on and on and on and on and on and... on about she's so upset about the fact that the guy she likes is basically having sex with another girl. I just want her to shut up. Yes, I understand you're upset but seriously? When that's the only thing you talk about. God Damn. Seriously?!?
Hmm... anyway.... I dunno. I'm tired. I want to go to sleep and not wake up until Monday, get inducted to NHS (national honor society), go back to bed and not get up until I have to get Confirmed. Then I can survive school.
*sigh*
Ooooh... my sister's boyfriend is staying with us for awhile. Don't know why, don't want to know. But this will be interesting...
Where, O death, is your victory? Where, O death, is your sting?
The sting of death is sin, and the power of sin is the law. But
thanks be to God! He gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus
Christ.
-- 1 Corinthians 15:55-57
I was having a pretty good week. At least, I think I was. I can't really remember much... it's all a bit sketchy. Monday... was pretty cool. Tuesday.... was empty. Wednesday... was good. Started choreography in choir, which really isn't that good. Also started work on school service hours... planted a tree :D. Then Thursday... took a math test (that I did fairly well on), did some more service hours. Then today... kinda went through the motions. It's friday, and I just die on Fridays. Took a test in history (did well on that one, too). And helped my history teacher grade tests... it's funny because I did what his student aids could do in an hour... in about 10 minutes. XD. Epic. Fail.
Anyhow, maybe as a senior I'll aid for him. He's a pretty cool teacher. And it's not like I'd end up doing much anyway... :P.
It's been pretty rainy and icky all day. It's nice.
Then for the past like... week at least my friend has been going on and on and on and on and on and on and... on about she's so upset about the fact that the guy she likes is basically having sex with another girl. I just want her to shut up. Yes, I understand you're upset but seriously? When that's the only thing you talk about. God Damn. Seriously?!?
Hmm... anyway.... I dunno. I'm tired. I want to go to sleep and not wake up until Monday, get inducted to NHS (national honor society), go back to bed and not get up until I have to get Confirmed. Then I can survive school.
*sigh*
Ooooh... my sister's boyfriend is staying with us for awhile. Don't know why, don't want to know. But this will be interesting...
Where, O death, is your victory? Where, O death, is your sting?
The sting of death is sin, and the power of sin is the law. But
thanks be to God! He gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus
Christ.
-- 1 Corinthians 15:55-57
Sunday
So, I was at a retreat this weekend. I'll be honest.... I wasn't going into it with an open mind. I just kinda figured it was a waste of my weekend and I could have done better things with my time (Lol, I probably wouldn't have).
Saturday morning I forget to turn off my alarm so I'm up at 6:30. I just lay in bed for about an hour and then decide to get up.I eat a little breakfast and just laze around, packing up a little bit. I finish packing up and my sister has me do some chores. Finally, it was time to leave.
I got there around 9:30, but I didn't spend a lot of time there. I had to go sing for a First Communion Mass. It was 2 hours (almost) so I didn't get back to the retreat until almost noon. Had this little discussion, played duck, duck goose. it was all great until guys got competitive and broke stuff :P. Then we had lunch. The girls and guys were split up and we were in our respective rooms. Talked some more.
Then we grouped back together and...... I can't remember. We had the option to go to confession or just go into the church and pray (which is what I did- I lost track of time so bad. It ends up that I was praying for almost a half hour). There was a lot of free time for the rest of the day and it kinda made me wonder. Anyhow, there was dinner and then we tried to do praise and worship singing... it did not work out well. Then we did adoration. Now, adoration with this group of people tends to be a very interesting thing. It started off with a lot of people crying hysterically. Then people starting laughing. I was just sitting there, head bowed and just trying to focus on God. While all these people are laughing, I'm starting to tear up. It's nothing new because it happens a lot during adoration.
Then I felt almost all of the physical aspects of crying- my chin started to quiver, my body began shaking a little bit and stuff like that. Now some of the leaders were going around and praying over people. By this point I felt a hand on my shoulder and I realized I was crying. Like, actual tears. It wasn't the sobbing that everyone else had... just quiet tears. I'm able to calm down enough to feel my friend Nicole pass me a tissue. Shortly after they had us calm down and do an activity... basically right some nice things you see in people that you got to know that day. It was hard because I was basically attached to Nicole the whole day XD. But I managed to do all 6. I only got two (hahahahaha. How lame am I?). But one was very touching to me. Here's what it said: "You have a very calm soul. I never see you scream or yell, it is nice to [see] such a peace and serenity in such a young person. You seem wise beyond years, share what you know with others. I feel like God is calling you to that."
Just something about that... I'm not sure what it was... but something about what he said... I dunno. it's hard to explain. Anyhow, after that was even more free time.
At midnight they rounded us up and separated us so we could sleep... (yeah right). The girls debated keeping the lights on or off... (we turned them off) and people were talking. Finally I decided that I had enough with the talking and told them to (politely) shut up. And they did. Woah.
Then at 4AM Nicole and I had to get up to do another half hour of adoration. We did slightly less and went back to sleep. Finally at 8 they woke us up. Got ready, ate breakfast. Played Simon says, heard one more person talk. Presented some stuff. Had more group discussions and then went to Church, where we all tried not to fall asleep.
Once I got home I took a nap. And then I used the computer (Oh sweet technology, how I missed it). And I'm happy. Tired, but happy.
At just the right time, when we were still powerless, Christ
died for the ungodly. Very rarely will anyone die for a righteous
man, though for a good man someone might possibly dare to die. But
God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still
sinners, Christ died for us.
-- Romans 5:6-8
Saturday morning I forget to turn off my alarm so I'm up at 6:30. I just lay in bed for about an hour and then decide to get up.I eat a little breakfast and just laze around, packing up a little bit. I finish packing up and my sister has me do some chores. Finally, it was time to leave.
I got there around 9:30, but I didn't spend a lot of time there. I had to go sing for a First Communion Mass. It was 2 hours (almost) so I didn't get back to the retreat until almost noon. Had this little discussion, played duck, duck goose. it was all great until guys got competitive and broke stuff :P. Then we had lunch. The girls and guys were split up and we were in our respective rooms. Talked some more.
Then we grouped back together and...... I can't remember. We had the option to go to confession or just go into the church and pray (which is what I did- I lost track of time so bad. It ends up that I was praying for almost a half hour). There was a lot of free time for the rest of the day and it kinda made me wonder. Anyhow, there was dinner and then we tried to do praise and worship singing... it did not work out well. Then we did adoration. Now, adoration with this group of people tends to be a very interesting thing. It started off with a lot of people crying hysterically. Then people starting laughing. I was just sitting there, head bowed and just trying to focus on God. While all these people are laughing, I'm starting to tear up. It's nothing new because it happens a lot during adoration.
Then I felt almost all of the physical aspects of crying- my chin started to quiver, my body began shaking a little bit and stuff like that. Now some of the leaders were going around and praying over people. By this point I felt a hand on my shoulder and I realized I was crying. Like, actual tears. It wasn't the sobbing that everyone else had... just quiet tears. I'm able to calm down enough to feel my friend Nicole pass me a tissue. Shortly after they had us calm down and do an activity... basically right some nice things you see in people that you got to know that day. It was hard because I was basically attached to Nicole the whole day XD. But I managed to do all 6. I only got two (hahahahaha. How lame am I?). But one was very touching to me. Here's what it said: "You have a very calm soul. I never see you scream or yell, it is nice to [see] such a peace and serenity in such a young person. You seem wise beyond years, share what you know with others. I feel like God is calling you to that."
Just something about that... I'm not sure what it was... but something about what he said... I dunno. it's hard to explain. Anyhow, after that was even more free time.
At midnight they rounded us up and separated us so we could sleep... (yeah right). The girls debated keeping the lights on or off... (we turned them off) and people were talking. Finally I decided that I had enough with the talking and told them to (politely) shut up. And they did. Woah.
Then at 4AM Nicole and I had to get up to do another half hour of adoration. We did slightly less and went back to sleep. Finally at 8 they woke us up. Got ready, ate breakfast. Played Simon says, heard one more person talk. Presented some stuff. Had more group discussions and then went to Church, where we all tried not to fall asleep.
Once I got home I took a nap. And then I used the computer (Oh sweet technology, how I missed it). And I'm happy. Tired, but happy.
At just the right time, when we were still powerless, Christ
died for the ungodly. Very rarely will anyone die for a righteous
man, though for a good man someone might possibly dare to die. But
God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still
sinners, Christ died for us.
-- Romans 5:6-8
Thursday
So. Today I almost got run over. It's not as bad as it sounds, really. I was crossing fairly busy street. However, the cross walk signal SAID I could. So I did. I'm at the median, getting ready to cross the next two lanes. I'm about to take my step and a car goes right in front of me. And I mean right in front of me. I could have reached out and touched the car. With my very fast comprehension, I'm starting at the lady in the car with my arms out, giving her the "What the hell?" look. I didn't even see her face, though. I finish crossing the street and think.... "God. People are idiots." It made me mad more than scared me.
I had my parent/teacher/student advisory this morning. Oh yes, up at the glorious 7AM. That was fun. However, the conference wasn't that bad. It was a quick little ten minute meeting. It was like, "You have all your credits, good. Your grades are good, keep going. Any ideas about college? Not getting bullied? Awesome, we're done" XD. Literally. It was awesome. Imma have to visit him from time to time...
Also, today I was actually productive. I did homework... I finished English and almost all of History. Now it's math and study for a math test... *gulp*
On another note... only 3 more confirmation classes and a retreat.... then I don't have to spend anymore time in that darn room again!
I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but
Christ lives in me. The life I live in the body, I live by faith in
the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.
-- Galatians 2:20
I had my parent/teacher/student advisory this morning. Oh yes, up at the glorious 7AM. That was fun. However, the conference wasn't that bad. It was a quick little ten minute meeting. It was like, "You have all your credits, good. Your grades are good, keep going. Any ideas about college? Not getting bullied? Awesome, we're done" XD. Literally. It was awesome. Imma have to visit him from time to time...
Also, today I was actually productive. I did homework... I finished English and almost all of History. Now it's math and study for a math test... *gulp*
On another note... only 3 more confirmation classes and a retreat.... then I don't have to spend anymore time in that darn room again!
I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but
Christ lives in me. The life I live in the body, I live by faith in
the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.
-- Galatians 2:20
Wednesday
I have this irrational fear that people say one thing to my face, and then another behind my back. Sure, everyone fears that but for some reason I've been fearing it more so lately. I don't have a reason too, either. It's just that nagging feeling... meh. People can say what they want.
But I have the week off (ok, most of the week). It's been pretty good. I've... slacked off, did no homework like I said I would, cleaned (GASP!), watched a movie with my friends and started to watch season 1 of Avatar: The Last Airbender. Goodness.... the show was so dorky. But I love it anyway <3.
Anyhow, I'm reeeaaalllyyyy sore today. I have no idea what I did the other day that made me so sore. Coughing and sneezing hurt. D:. At least I'm not doing either of those much.
I finally decided to get some work done. I have my English paper in front of me. I have no idea what changes I'm making. But ya know... it's doing something productive. I imagine I'm going to be doing a lot of work tomorrow. I have math homework, history homework and a Latin packet for English. Yuck. Now I know why procrastinating is bad.
I realized that I am such a dork. I watched Ninja Warrior this morning (at the very pleasant 8 AM) and realized that I can't wait for the new tournament on Saturday :D.
Hmmmm.... what else, what else....
I've felt unexplainable guilt and happiness in the past few days. The guilt part is because I turned a friend in for smoking on campus. The happiness because I've been trusted by another friend. Also because I managed to have a good conversation with another person just days before Easter.
And that person has no idea how special they are to me. <3. And whenever I tell them.... they don't believe me. I'll keep trying until they understand.
All the plans for getting me a car have fallen through :(. Patience. Patience.
Parent/Teacher/Student conference for me tomorrow. I get to be up at the glorious hour of 7AM to tell my sister the stuff she already knows. yayyyyyyy.
That is all....
Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our
faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning
its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.
-- Hebrews 12:2
But I have the week off (ok, most of the week). It's been pretty good. I've... slacked off, did no homework like I said I would, cleaned (GASP!), watched a movie with my friends and started to watch season 1 of Avatar: The Last Airbender. Goodness.... the show was so dorky. But I love it anyway <3.
Anyhow, I'm reeeaaalllyyyy sore today. I have no idea what I did the other day that made me so sore. Coughing and sneezing hurt. D:. At least I'm not doing either of those much.
I finally decided to get some work done. I have my English paper in front of me. I have no idea what changes I'm making. But ya know... it's doing something productive. I imagine I'm going to be doing a lot of work tomorrow. I have math homework, history homework and a Latin packet for English. Yuck. Now I know why procrastinating is bad.
I realized that I am such a dork. I watched Ninja Warrior this morning (at the very pleasant 8 AM) and realized that I can't wait for the new tournament on Saturday :D.
Hmmmm.... what else, what else....
I've felt unexplainable guilt and happiness in the past few days. The guilt part is because I turned a friend in for smoking on campus. The happiness because I've been trusted by another friend. Also because I managed to have a good conversation with another person just days before Easter.
And that person has no idea how special they are to me. <3. And whenever I tell them.... they don't believe me. I'll keep trying until they understand.
All the plans for getting me a car have fallen through :(. Patience. Patience.
Parent/Teacher/Student conference for me tomorrow. I get to be up at the glorious hour of 7AM to tell my sister the stuff she already knows. yayyyyyyy.
That is all....
Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our
faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning
its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.
-- Hebrews 12:2
Saturday
Happy Spring.
Too bad there's snow on the ground.
Yes. Snow. Not a little sprinkling, but like a massive dump. It's like mother nature decided to be mean and give more snow in the past like, two weeks than we've gotten since like... November. Eh. Just as long as it warms up I'm good.
So, anyway, last night I went to a sleepover. Mmm. Fun times. We were planning to watch a movie... didn't happen. We stayed up until like, two in the morning talking to each other. It was pretty amazing.
It was all a 'you had to be there' kinda night. I could explain so many things (like I'm apparently a Nazi because my friend but the swastika on my hand wrong). And singing in some Asian song to random people. It really was an amusing night. I had a good time and it was a good way to end my break :)
The fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness,
goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control. Against such
things there is no law.
-- Galatians 5:22-23
Too bad there's snow on the ground.
Yes. Snow. Not a little sprinkling, but like a massive dump. It's like mother nature decided to be mean and give more snow in the past like, two weeks than we've gotten since like... November. Eh. Just as long as it warms up I'm good.
So, anyway, last night I went to a sleepover. Mmm. Fun times. We were planning to watch a movie... didn't happen. We stayed up until like, two in the morning talking to each other. It was pretty amazing.
It was all a 'you had to be there' kinda night. I could explain so many things (like I'm apparently a Nazi because my friend but the swastika on my hand wrong). And singing in some Asian song to random people. It really was an amusing night. I had a good time and it was a good way to end my break :)
The fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness,
goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control. Against such
things there is no law.
-- Galatians 5:22-23
Thursday
So. First and foremost I suppose I should start with tonight. I went to go see John Michael Talbut at my parent's church. I was required to go see him when he was visiting my parish for Confirmation class, but I wasn't able to. So, I read that he's coming and I'm a little curious. I just want to see what he's about and such. And that's what I did tonight. I went and I saw him.
My. It was beautiful. It made me wish I went and saw him yesterday, too. And it almost makes me want to see him again tomorrow (but I have other plans). Basically what it was... was breaking down the prayer- "Lord Jesus Christ, son of God, forgive me, a sinner." What powerful, but simple words. Each with a meaning we sometimes forget. The basis of our faith. We believe (or more importantly- each and every one of us chose to believe) that the Lord God, Jesus Christ is our salvation. He shows the way, and is the way.
I could go on for a long long long time about it. But, I'll have to reiterate his analogy about wheat. Us, as the wheat. In order to become bread- to be able to nourish others, we have to be reformed. We have to be taken, and ground down. God is the one who takes us, our lives and grinds it down. It can be hard, giving up what we know and what we are. However, when we choose to let him take control... good things come in the end. Then, with the flour. You add water. This can go two ways. It can be the overflow of the Holy Spirit. Your life made anew. Or the simple fact that you are drowning in life. The gifts and fruits of the Holy Spirit make all the extras. Finally, comes time for the yeast. First you building upon you, your old self, what you know. But, you get deflated. Then you rise again... and this time you build yourself on the word of God. And this is good. Now is the hard part. Placed in the oven. The judgment of God. You can fight all you want, it's going to happen anyway. This is the time when you answer to all that you've done. And, in the end. You are turned into bread. Nourishment. You can feed others and help them grow.
That IS life in God. You can make it as easy or as difficult as you wish.
Lastly, this is what I was thinking on my way home. When you think of monks, priests, nuns, and others who have chosen to live a holy life... you don't think of anyone you can relate to. I know I wasn't expecting to laugh or even... understand some of his references. But I did. That's the magical thing about it. He wasn't always called into the holy life. It's amazing how life can take you on it's path. He is an amazing guy. His music is wonderful and just what he's talking about....
I had a wonderful evening. I'm glad I went.
Now, for the past few days I've been on spring break. Which means I basically don't do anything productive, stay up late and sleep in. Well, besides the fact that I've actually been working on my research paper... it's been a true spring break. Tomorrow I get to see a friend that I haven't seen since January, and well... just have a good time.
I also found some patterns of things I'd like to sew today. Simple stuff but it's stuff that I'd like to try. Maybe one day I will.
Anyhow, I figure this is getting long enough with my rambling. But I have to say this:
I love you
:)
I truly mean it. I love you and I hope God blesses your life thoroughly. My prayers go out with you all tonight, as I figure out my angst with a friend. It's all gossip really. Lets just say she needs some love that I'm not sure I can give. I ask for prayers for both of us.
May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust
in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy
Spirit.
-- Romans 15:13
My. It was beautiful. It made me wish I went and saw him yesterday, too. And it almost makes me want to see him again tomorrow (but I have other plans). Basically what it was... was breaking down the prayer- "Lord Jesus Christ, son of God, forgive me, a sinner." What powerful, but simple words. Each with a meaning we sometimes forget. The basis of our faith. We believe (or more importantly- each and every one of us chose to believe) that the Lord God, Jesus Christ is our salvation. He shows the way, and is the way.
I could go on for a long long long time about it. But, I'll have to reiterate his analogy about wheat. Us, as the wheat. In order to become bread- to be able to nourish others, we have to be reformed. We have to be taken, and ground down. God is the one who takes us, our lives and grinds it down. It can be hard, giving up what we know and what we are. However, when we choose to let him take control... good things come in the end. Then, with the flour. You add water. This can go two ways. It can be the overflow of the Holy Spirit. Your life made anew. Or the simple fact that you are drowning in life. The gifts and fruits of the Holy Spirit make all the extras. Finally, comes time for the yeast. First you building upon you, your old self, what you know. But, you get deflated. Then you rise again... and this time you build yourself on the word of God. And this is good. Now is the hard part. Placed in the oven. The judgment of God. You can fight all you want, it's going to happen anyway. This is the time when you answer to all that you've done. And, in the end. You are turned into bread. Nourishment. You can feed others and help them grow.
That IS life in God. You can make it as easy or as difficult as you wish.
Lastly, this is what I was thinking on my way home. When you think of monks, priests, nuns, and others who have chosen to live a holy life... you don't think of anyone you can relate to. I know I wasn't expecting to laugh or even... understand some of his references. But I did. That's the magical thing about it. He wasn't always called into the holy life. It's amazing how life can take you on it's path. He is an amazing guy. His music is wonderful and just what he's talking about....
I had a wonderful evening. I'm glad I went.
Now, for the past few days I've been on spring break. Which means I basically don't do anything productive, stay up late and sleep in. Well, besides the fact that I've actually been working on my research paper... it's been a true spring break. Tomorrow I get to see a friend that I haven't seen since January, and well... just have a good time.
I also found some patterns of things I'd like to sew today. Simple stuff but it's stuff that I'd like to try. Maybe one day I will.
Anyhow, I figure this is getting long enough with my rambling. But I have to say this:
I love you
:)
I truly mean it. I love you and I hope God blesses your life thoroughly. My prayers go out with you all tonight, as I figure out my angst with a friend. It's all gossip really. Lets just say she needs some love that I'm not sure I can give. I ask for prayers for both of us.
May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust
in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy
Spirit.
-- Romans 15:13
I have two cats and I love nascar
"Is he married?"
"What are you saying?"
"He must be pretty lonely if he has two cats."
"And you're married?"
"Yes"
"If I was the guy I would've been like 'Damn'"
XD. Watching "Wheel of Fortune".
I love watching these things.
Anyway... what a week so far.
Monday... I was up at 2:30 (yes, AM) and I couldn't fall asleep. So I had to deal with some very annoying freshmen. But it was awesome because I missed the whole day of school, ate fast food and sang. My choir went to a choir contest. We... did amazing! Straight 1's!!!!
Tuesday... fairly good. Kinda pissed because my sister yelled at me twice before school even started. But it toggled between a good and bad day. It was good because science lifted up my spirits. I got a cupcake and managed to have tons of time left over after my assignment to have fun. But it was math (where I learned I had a test), and spanish (It's an OK class...).
Wednesday... I had a fairly good day. Got the news on how we did at our choir contest. We sounded fairly good. We could have done better, but when it comes down to it, we did alright. I got caught up in photo... but I'm still confused about my new assignment. Oh well. Maybe I'll ask him tomorrow... Finished my sewing class and made a nice bag. I can't wait to show it off :). It's not amazing, but I'm fairly proud of it.
Today... besides the fact of all the snow. It was nice. Chilly but not overbearingly so. My math test was kinda hard but I think I did alright. Aced a science test I was totally unprepared for... and just had an awesome time watching a movie in Spanish... There was this one line in the movie.. I cannot remember what it was but a kid in the class said "He wants to come." XD. Yeah... It was just really funny.
I baked brownies :). I'm happy. They're sweet but good. So I hope all my friends like 'em.
Spring break should be awesome. I hopefully only have to type out my research paper....
And that should be all.
Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the
Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in
all of our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble
with the comfort we ourselves have received from God.
-- 2 Corinthians 1:3-4
"Is he married?"
"What are you saying?"
"He must be pretty lonely if he has two cats."
"And you're married?"
"Yes"
"If I was the guy I would've been like 'Damn'"
XD. Watching "Wheel of Fortune".
I love watching these things.
Anyway... what a week so far.
Monday... I was up at 2:30 (yes, AM) and I couldn't fall asleep. So I had to deal with some very annoying freshmen. But it was awesome because I missed the whole day of school, ate fast food and sang. My choir went to a choir contest. We... did amazing! Straight 1's!!!!
Tuesday... fairly good. Kinda pissed because my sister yelled at me twice before school even started. But it toggled between a good and bad day. It was good because science lifted up my spirits. I got a cupcake and managed to have tons of time left over after my assignment to have fun. But it was math (where I learned I had a test), and spanish (It's an OK class...).
Wednesday... I had a fairly good day. Got the news on how we did at our choir contest. We sounded fairly good. We could have done better, but when it comes down to it, we did alright. I got caught up in photo... but I'm still confused about my new assignment. Oh well. Maybe I'll ask him tomorrow... Finished my sewing class and made a nice bag. I can't wait to show it off :). It's not amazing, but I'm fairly proud of it.
Today... besides the fact of all the snow. It was nice. Chilly but not overbearingly so. My math test was kinda hard but I think I did alright. Aced a science test I was totally unprepared for... and just had an awesome time watching a movie in Spanish... There was this one line in the movie.. I cannot remember what it was but a kid in the class said "He wants to come." XD. Yeah... It was just really funny.
I baked brownies :). I'm happy. They're sweet but good. So I hope all my friends like 'em.
Spring break should be awesome. I hopefully only have to type out my research paper....
And that should be all.
Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the
Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in
all of our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble
with the comfort we ourselves have received from God.
-- 2 Corinthians 1:3-4
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